Stuck in the waiting room!

Am I the only one that quite often finds myself stuck in the waiting room? I don’t think so. Just go to a doctor’s appointment or take a visit to the hospital and have a look around in the waiting rooms. Check out the line of people waiting with shopping bags at the weekly food handouts to the poorest of the poor, wondering what they will be able to eat for the coming week. Psychiatric hospitals are filled with people stuck in a body they just don’t know how to escape from, likewise how autistic people sometimes can feel. These are a bit extreme examples, but they are a reality in our society.

I am fortunate, my waiting room currently looks a bit different, not as dramatic as theirs. The thing that we all do have in common is this: We (sometimes) find ourselves in a place where deep down inside we know we don’t belong…we’re not supposed to be there. There is more, something better then this! When God formed us in our mothers whom, He placed a destiny in us. This destiny is a huge part of who we are. This destiny is also the place where we manifest Gods Glory to the fullest, because it comes from Him in the first place and it will return back to the One who designed it. For this reason Satan is working very hard to keep our eyes away from the revelation of Gods potential in us. From early on Satan will do anything possible to keep our spiritual eyes closed and blocking roads to make us take other directions, away from our destiny’s. In most cases this is easy for him because most people haven’t accepted Jesus as their savior. Without Jesus, we don’t stand a chance resisting the devil. Then there are the Christians that do have Jesus in their lives but not a relationship with Him and have no idea about the spiritual realm. They do not understand that we have a enemy fighting us each and every moment of the day. Then you also have people that do have that relationship with Jesus and are aware of this other realm and they are fighting the enemy on a daily basis to get him of our backs and off our tracks.

In my case; when I grew up I was in a home of the second category where we did know about Jesus and I was baptized as a baby and I did go to a Christian (elementary) school. But there was no relationship with Him and this changed our home into the first category. We became non-believers. Satan was ruling our house.

When I was just a born again believer, I was attacked massively as I was cleaning up my life. For example when I was a sleep I would be paralyzed and I felt myself being pulled down into the darkness. I couldn’t move nor speak, and I knew that this was it, I am gone. In my spirit I said: “Jesus, if this is it…know that I love You, Jesus I love You, Jesus I love You! At the third time suddenly the grip of darkness would leave me, I was back. This is just one example of many that I have. Most attacks I was able to tackle, but at least one time I wasn’t. This is where my daughter was created and this brought on a whole new level of attacks. For example when I was 8 months pregnant, I was in the car with her ‘father’ when suddenly He would just lose his mind and started screaming at me so loud, it vibrated through my whole body. During this he would pull up the car and then hit the brakes again. Everybody driving around us started to take a huge distance from us. During this I quietly prayed in tongues and asked God what is going on. How do I pray about this. When he started to scream about the sins of the church I smiled inside and told God to have His way with him. Now I was sure that it was the devil next to me and I can pray to God to attack the devil. So I continued to pray in tongues and then he got to the point that he would scream: “Shall I show you how crazy I am? (2x)…You see that tree there? I’ll show you how crazy I am!” There was a tree and behind it the water. I visualized us in the car drowning in the water. My thought was: “What if nobody finds us, we (baby and I) would be in this water forever!” Remember, I was just born again, the heaven part was not that familiar to me then as it is now. The moment he wanted to push the gas padel I felt a anesthesia in my body. I was seeing it all, but it was like I was not there. Now I understand that it was the presence of God, an Angel appeared to us. In a split second, we were standing in front of the final traffic light before the impact, and it was green…but now it was red! And not only that, in front AND on both sides next to us were huge cars, we were trapped. And the final miracle was that within that split second he was ‘normal’ again.

You might be thinking: “Judith, this is some heavy stuff.” But did you know that on a daily basis thousands of people, including children are going through these kinds of experiences? Many of them don’t make it out alive. I’ve spend some time in Woman’s Shelters and I can tell you, they are in the waiting room! Just like happened to me, where people  in the cars didn’t intervene but actually take a huge distance from it, so it is happening right now. Jesus said in Luke 10:2 “The harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into His harvest field.” In John 4:35 Jesus said: “Don’t you have a saying, ‘It’s still four months until harvest’? I tell you, open your eyes and look at the fields! They are ripe for harvest.”

When I started this topic I did not have this content on my mind. As I was typing the Holy Spirit guided me to this point. Reading it back I can see and feel the call of the Holy Spirit on this message: Let us start opening our eyes to see the reality that we have an enemy to fight against. His name is Satan and He thinks he is ruling this earth. But God is starting to flip the coin and opening our eyes to see all the people stuck in all the waiting rooms, ready to be called by the doctor (Jesus) and receive their salvation and navigation, pointing them back on the track to their place of destiny they originally received from the Father in heaven. Let us have an understanding that the spiritual world is literally darkness against light. When I got baptized in 2010, I was wearing black and white clothing. Before the baptizer started he said: “Black we are leaving behind! White, come on”! Could you and I make this the motto of our Christian Life? Could it be possible to have this desire burning in our hearts to exterminate darkness? I believe it is, for this is the Trinity’s hearts desire…sooner or later, we will catch it up and burn like we have never done before…COME ON JESUS!

Doug Addison teaches us to ask God the following: “Lord Jesus, let me see that which Satan doesn’t want me to see!” I have been doing that and I came to this conclusion…Do it! You won’t regret it!

God is up to something, I pray you and I will have a deep desire to join in on it.

Many blessings from me to you…

How eatable are we?

No, I haven’t completely lost my mind and turned cannibalistic on people. This is actually what the Scripture tells us to be to this world.

“Blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the company of mockers, but whose delight is in the law of the Lord, and who meditates on his law day and night. That person is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither – whatever they do prospers”. Psalm 1:1-3

David was speaking about the Law that God gave Moses on Mount Zion, the ten commandments. However Paul is very clear that in the new Testament we don’t fall under the law anymore…we have been delivered from it by the blood of Jesus.  This can be very confusing for us. We have to behave good, yet it does not matter because grace has us covert. Jesus explains that the main commandments are to love God and to love your neighbor as yourself. In John He actually gives us the new command: “A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are My disciples, if you love one another.” John 13:34-35

“If you love Me, keep My commands. And I will ask the Father, and He will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever – the Spirit of truth. (…)” John 14:15-17a

This is an introduction to something God is working in my spirit for a week or two now. Yesterday, after I (and some other members of my church) participated and received a cross of ashes on my head at the Ash Wednesday in the Catholic church, revelations started pouring in. Afterwards I rushed home to soak in it and try to make sense of it all. It all started with Ezekiel 47:1-12. Ezekiel describes the water coming from the Throne Room from heaven. As it is multiplying it increases in strength and power. However, what God pointed me at was that only when it touched the Dead Sea he starts talking about how it is turning it into living & sweet water.

What I love about the Catholic church is that they understand that we are talking and walking with a Holy God. They have eyes for details and don’t take anything of God for granted. They are aware of our sinful nature's and at the same time view it with so much love and compassion. As I was receiving these words filled with Grace and Mercy, I asked God why there is not more power released over to the people hearing it. (By the way, not only in the Catholic church, the entire Body of Christ.) Why do we not see more of it released into the world. The walls were covert with holiness, many angels present and the Throne Room in heaven was completely zoomed in and participating in the whole service.

I felt God saying that what we, as the Body of Christ, are missing is the flow from the Holy Spirit. I see this as the Christian walk with God. It is a process with the Holy Spirit and our relationship with God  that in turn will become more and growing in power. It is when it touches the Dead Sea, where Ezekiel sais that it turns into sweet water that actually brings life into the water. The Dead Sea consists of so much salt, that life is just impossible. This we can view as being the world that has not received Christ yet and is cut off the Life support from Heaven. Or people with terrible wounding or addictions and covert with depression and darkness…a hopeless case. However, I also have to think about the scriptures where Jesus tells us that we are the salt on the earth. We bring flavor to this world. However, the Dead Sea has no life, because there is just too much salt. I personally consider the scribes and Pharisees type of Christians as forming a Dead Sea as well. They adopted such a harsh way of carrying out the gospel, with no Mercy or Grace and no relationship with the Living God, that the option of life is pushed out…too much salt. There is condemnation and too much own insight. Doom and gloom talk that brings fear or hopelessness into the lives…

“But when He, the Spirit of Truth (the Truth giving Spirit) comes, He will guide you into all the Truth (the whole, full Truth). For He will not speak His own message [on His own authority]; but He will tell whatever He hears [from the Father; He will give the message that has been given to Him], and He will announce and declare to you the things that are to come [that will happen in the future]. He will honor and glorify Me, because He will take of (receive, draw upon) what is Mine and will reveal (declare, disclose, transmit) it to you. Everything that the Father has is Mine. That is what I meant when I said that He [the Spirit] will take the things that are Mine and will reveal (declare, disclose, transmit) it to you.” John 16:13-15

In the book ‘Keys to the Bible’, David Pawson explains that the whole vision of Ezekiel 47 is a dream that offers people hope, that in the future it will get better. I believe that we are entering into a time where this is actually coming to pass. I believe that we are going to see the Grace and Glory manifested in such a way, this flow will enter into the deathliest of Seas to turn it back to Life.

And yes, there will be swamps and marshes that not become wholesome for animal life; they shall [as the river subsides] be left encrusted with salt and given over to it. Ezekiel 47:11.

It is my prayer that you and I will taste the fullness of what God has for us, that the fruit of the Spirit receives its nutrition from the Throne room of Heaven so that it can serve as food for those who are hungry but stuck in the Dead Sea. How? Worshipping God, reading the bible and speak it back to God, praying and talking with Him and allow Him to fill us with the Truth and let it transform our character… So that the leaves will never wither and brings healing by the lives that we live, in Love and by being the hands and feet of Jesus. To ask God continually to have His eyes to see, and His ears to hear. Some people only need to see the Love of Jesus in our eyes and receive healing instantly.

So, my question to us is this: How eatable are we? Where do we find ourselves planted at the moment? Are we willing to let go of some salt that will make room for what God wants to give us? Shall we be that part of the Sea that allows God to transform us? And maybe you find yourself in that part of a Sea that is suffocating you with too much salt...would you not become part of a swamp or marshes that has given up on God? I see so many people leaving their Faith due to hurt that the churches have caused, but I am here to ask you not to give up on God. He is about to sent out His revival Spirit and it is coming to find you! Please keep your heart open and ready to receive the water that will bring the Life of God back into your soul and your spirit! He wants to bless us over flowingly!

“And on the banks of the river on both sides, there shall grow all kinds of trees for food their leaf shall not fade nor shall their fruit fail [to meet the demand]. Each tree shall bring forth new fruit every month, [these supernatural qualities being] because their waters came from out of the sanctuary. And their fruit shall be for food and their leaves for healing.” Ezekiel 47:12

Past, present, future.

Do you have fears in your life? Maybe spiders give you the creeps (or is that just me?), or maybe you are afraid of failing? There are many things that we can be afraid of. They can be a huge pain in the b…, because we don’t want it, but there it is again! Lately God is working on this area of my life. The good news is: “I am a conqueror through Christ who strengthens me”. However…in order to conquer fears, you actually have to face them. This does not stand high on my priority list.

There are many reasons for fear to enter into our lives. I will keep it close to myself, so I want to go through the fears based on past experiences and wounds we have picked up in life. What can be experiences that causes us to fear and paralyze us? A broken home, rejected by your parent(s), raised by an alcoholic, spirit of death present in your home that causes a lot of uncertainty, abuse, being in relationships where lots of things were done behind your back, or a relationship where you are persuaded into doing things you know you shouldn’t but there is no room for your no and that also has domestic violence present where at times you even face death. These experiences can be very destructive to a person and these situations inflict wounds that absolutely need healing.

One day I was reading a question that said: “What is your greatest fear in life?” As I was reflecting on this question I came to the conclusion that being happy has always been my greatest fear. Because every time things were calm and okay, something (or I now can say “someone called Satan”) came and take that happiness away. The pain that it caused was too much for me, and I knew it would enter my life again. So, if I wasn’t happy, I wouldn’t have to go through that pain of losing it again.

In the Bible it says that we were not given a spirit of fear. This tells us that fear can actually be a demonic spirit. God told me one day that when we have wounds in our heart or soul that we don’t allow God to heal, these places are vulnerable to dirt or infections and this means for demonic to attach themselves to these places. This is not something to be afraid of, because God is in the business of restoration and deliverance, so this is not a problem. However, we do need to address them and give God a chance to heal us.

I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you will be clean; I will cleanse you from all your impurities and from all your idols. I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. Ezekiel 36:25-26

Personally, God has restored much of my heart. The list of situations that I mentioned earlier is a basic line of experiences I  picked up in life. One day God showed me my heart and it was full of craters, scares, and black spots. My heart was a complete mess. However, it was carried in the hands of God. As I was looking at my heart while God was holding it, He released healing power and my heart started to get healthy again. This is amazing and done with so much grace. But this does not mean that it is over. Now it needs to be fed with the truth. Then God tells you that you are ready to open your heart again and trust in His goodness and try it again. He wants you to create new experiences, trusting Him that He has done His part, and He will pull you through to a place of victory.

What I’ve learned is that our happiness placed in the hands of our circumstances, is a very bad investment. What God is teaching me is that our happiness in Christ Jesus means that whatever the circumstances are, we are at peace. The Holy Spirit inside of us has us covert. This is just amazing!

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:27

We don’t have to walk on egg shelves anymore, looking over our shoulder to see if danger is approaching again, we can be at peace. I mentioned at the beginning that we do have to face our fears, God will put us to the test. This point I have reached. I know the truth now, but I still have to believe it when He actually wants me to put it into practice. I am receiving new experiences to replace the old. I can trust Him to never leave my side, for me this is like walking on water…this is a huge step!

I don’t know if you can relate to anything that I have just wrote down, but if you do, I pray supernatural healing over you. God loves you and He wants to look at you and see a healthy beating heart, full with joy and peace and trust in His goodness. I am still learning and my guess is that I will be learning for the rest of my life. I just want to become more and more like Him, so let this be the sacrifices I make to let it come to pass.

Take care...