Do you have
fears in your life? Maybe spiders give you the creeps (or is that just me?), or
maybe you are afraid of failing? There are many things that we can be afraid
of. They can be a huge pain in the b…, because we don’t want it, but there it is
again! Lately God is working on this area of my life. The good news is: “I am a
conqueror through Christ who strengthens me”. However…in order to conquer fears,
you actually have to face them. This does not stand high on my priority list.
There are
many reasons for fear to enter into our lives. I will keep it close to myself,
so I want to go through the fears based on past experiences and wounds we have
picked up in life. What can be experiences that causes us to fear and paralyze
us? A broken home, rejected by your parent(s), raised by an alcoholic, spirit
of death present in your home that causes a lot of uncertainty, abuse, being in
relationships where lots of things were done behind your back, or a
relationship where you are persuaded into doing things you know you shouldn’t but
there is no room for your no and that also has domestic violence present where
at times you even face death. These experiences can be very destructive to a
person and these situations inflict wounds that absolutely need healing.
One day I
was reading a question that said: “What is your greatest fear in life?” As I was
reflecting on this question I came to the conclusion that being happy has always been my
greatest fear. Because every time things were calm and okay, something (or I
now can say “someone called Satan”) came and take that happiness away. The pain
that it caused was too much for me, and I knew it would enter my life again. So, if
I wasn’t happy, I wouldn’t have to go through that pain of losing it again.
In the Bible
it says that we were not given a spirit of fear. This tells us that fear can
actually be a demonic spirit. God told me one day that when we have wounds in
our heart or soul that we don’t allow God to heal, these places are
vulnerable to dirt or infections and this means for demonic to attach themselves
to these places. This is not something to be afraid of, because God is in the
business of restoration and deliverance, so this is not a problem. However, we
do need to address them and give God a chance to heal us.
I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you
will be clean; I will cleanse you from all your impurities and from all your
idols. I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove
from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. Ezekiel
36:25-26
Personally,
God has restored much of my heart. The list of situations that I mentioned
earlier is a basic line of experiences I picked up in life. One day God showed me my
heart and it was full of craters, scares, and black spots. My heart was a
complete mess. However, it was carried in the hands of God. As I was looking at
my heart while God was holding it, He released healing power and my heart started
to get healthy again. This is amazing and done with so much grace. But this
does not mean that it is over. Now it needs to be fed with the truth. Then God
tells you that you are ready to open your heart again and trust in His goodness
and try it again. He wants you to create new experiences, trusting Him that He
has done His part, and He will pull you through to a place of victory.
What I’ve
learned is that our happiness placed in the hands of our circumstances, is a very
bad investment. What God is teaching me is that our happiness in Christ Jesus
means that whatever the circumstances are, we are at peace. The Holy Spirit
inside of us has us covert. This is just amazing!
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I
do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and
do not be afraid. John 14:27
We don’t have
to walk on egg shelves anymore, looking over our shoulder to see if danger is approaching
again, we can be at peace. I mentioned at the beginning that we do have to face
our fears, God will put us to the test. This point I have reached. I know the
truth now, but I still have to believe it when He actually wants me to put it
into practice. I am receiving new experiences to replace the old. I can trust
Him to never leave my side, for me this is like walking on water…this is a huge
step!
I don’t know
if you can relate to anything that I have just wrote down, but if you do, I
pray supernatural healing over you. God loves you and He wants to look at you
and see a healthy beating heart, full with joy and peace and trust in His
goodness. I am still learning and my guess is that I will be learning for the
rest of my life. I just want to become more and more like Him, so let this be
the sacrifices I make to let it come to pass.
Take care...
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